Saturday, April 20, 2013

Like Spring to Me


Graying skies, clouds roiling above in humid April

Fields of emerald grass stirring and waving as restlessly as the heavens

The window is open and the air pours in with my speed

This morning is filling me up just as the banjo from Mumford buoys my heart along

You are on my mind. I’ve fucked us up again.

Somehow I am not as broken though. Spring is closing before my eyes the very wound I inflicted and I long to share this moment of healing with you

 Yet I realize that there is a peace and a joy that I find alone, that I can find nowhere else—as much as I try to deny it—being alone restores something within me today

Salty tears and a quavering voice intone—

“Live unbruised we are friends, you know me!”

Dogwoods dot the road, blowing me memories like cream colored petals.

Cool, sweet raindrops spray my face sporadically

They mix with the wild yellow pollen and flow in tiny aureolin rivers across the glass

I would die a thousand times to blot out your pain, pain I caused. My remoteness is born of insecurity but I long to allow you freedom to stroll through my inner thoughts again

Your smile is like Spring to me—a fresh start. Every day we are we is a rebirth. These tiny moments alone only make me cherish you the more

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